Wanted: Dog Harnesses

•August 10, 2009 • 2 Comments

Today began at 4:45 p.m.. Dogs barking and bags dropping; these are things that signal me back to conciousness. When I walk up for a simple hug it’s incredibly refreshing to get a grasp that demands you to know that your presence has been strongly desired for many hours. I know I am the luckiest to have a wife that loves me and encourages me to do better than I did the day before. Sometimes I wonder if I am providing the same encouragement that I am given. I know that’s not what it’s about but Rachel is such an incredible photographer, and her buisness is really showing potential. I need to tell her that more… Marriage: To live forever with the one person in the world you can’t go a day without. To need to be part of their life and view their life from beginning to end because you need to know what happens. I’m so glad i’m married to my bestfriend.

consistency

•June 6, 2009 • Leave a Comment

in a fear that i might fold  i look for your steady hold.

a hope with faith fueled by love

•March 22, 2009 • 1 Comment

sometimes the uncertainties of life bring me to a place of happiness.  not a happiness driven by an appetitive and pleasure seeking motive…a happiness that comes from a submission of knowledge to the one who is knowledge.  to be in a place where the fact that you know that you don’t know brings a new understanding to the cosmic order.  some say that people who believe in a god are self centered to think that something created all of this for us.  i think people who hold that idea are at the very least misunderstanding Christianity.  Christianity brings people to a place where they are nothing apart from Christ.  i agree that puts us in some sort of plan with the “Almighty” but the entire creation is involved in that plan.  we are called to be humble and loving.  it also seems that if Christianity was made up by the minds of men then heaven would be a little more appealing to the worldly man.  instead we are told that we get to praise God for eternity.  it would make more sense if we were told that if we inherit the “prize” we would have alcohol, endless sex, and self praising.   all of these odd thoughts are just a preview of what goes through my head when i look to the sky and realize how small i am…

valentiMeS

•February 9, 2009 • 3 Comments

i’m so ready for this weekend!  i have saturday off and that means i get the whole day to show my favorite how special she is.  in the past i have been grossed out about this holiday.   last year i bought rachel this hilarious pink wife beater that had dale earnhart on the front.  it made me smile.  this year it seems more serious…it just seems like a golden excuse to spend too much money on dinner and actually feel great after the check comes.

in years to come

•January 29, 2009 • 1 Comment

I want to write the perfect song
and play it just for you
while you are tangled up in sleep
I need you more than I’ll ever know
until i stop breathing
my lungs will take you for granted

with love we can need eachother again

•January 27, 2009 • Leave a Comment

in a hundred little pieces i found myself in need of a gathering.  in my panic i began fumbling through all of the cabinets and drawers in search of an adhesive non-existant.   as i shut one of the drawers i saw a picture that had frozen a time of joy, love, and happiness.   a time when i could properly project my feelings.  the time that when i knew what we had was different and superior to what other people experienced.  i then realized we could be there again and the only thing stopping us was my vain repitition and inability to be a human being.  i’ve now done my share of bleeding and it’s time for this to be reconciled.

fantastic voyage

•January 13, 2009 • 1 Comment

rachel and i have moved into a little house that i think fits us quite well.  we are finally getting everything settled in and my mind seems to be at a little more ease.  rachel thinks that something is wrong with me if clutter makes me nervous.  then again, a lot of things make me nervous.  when things started making me nervous i started making it known to my friends.  i’m pretty sure they thought it was endearing when it was just things like people wearing blue jeans with running shoes that made me nervous.  now anytime we are going through a “driv-thru” i get really nervous and accidentally order things like plain iced coffee because that’s all i could think of in my frantic and blurred state.    I’m pretty sure i just need to start exercising and counting to ten or something?